What a Year ... Bring on 2009

Bless me Blog, it has been a while since I last posted something.

2008 has been a very challenging year for me. It was the start to a new life on my own and and has been filled with many ups and downs.

I began the year thinking that I would be ok on my own, I would manage and be able to look after myself. I am a stubborn person and don't like to admit defeat. I have now accepted that living on my own is something I can no longer afford to do.

A very wise man said to me a little while ago to "GOYA!" - get of your arse!! I thank you my dear and cherished friend.

I accept that there are somethings that I cannot change and are beyond my control but those that I can, I will.

So ... I will be looking for a housemate to ease the financial burden ... Any/All recommendations will be welcome ;-)

My resolution for 2009 is to be positive and move forward towards achieving stability in my life.

I have met some wonderful people and have made some great friends in the latter half of 2008 and look forward to sharing more fun times together.


My eldest daughter, Marissa, not only turned 18 this year but wrote her HSC. She excelled in her results and I am extremely proud of her.

My youngest daughter, Stephanie, turned 12 and celebrated her Batmitzvah. She made me very proud in her delivery of her speech and in the confident young lady she has become.

Marissa heads off overseas next year for at least 10 months and whilst I will miss her very much it will be an experience of a lifetime for her.

I hope that all my friends have had a wonderful Christmas and that 2009 is a good year for all.

((hugs))
xx

Support - What's that?????

Apologies if anyone thinks I am looking for sympathy ... I AM NOT. I am writing this to get it off my chest and to help raise awareness.

I am pleased to see that more focus is being placed on removing the stigma towards how depression is perceived and that a greater awareness/understanding is being placed on mental illness.

I had a bad day today. I rang my mother for a chat and some "support" only to be told, "Pull Yourself Together!" and "You can't behave like this!". I was teary and emotional. I know in my heart and head that it was a bad day and it would pass but it is not what I needed to hear from her. I find it extremely frustrating as it is almost as if my mother will not accept that something or someone in her life is not PERFECT!!!

Yes, I know I am an adult
Yes, I am independent
Yes, I have a job
Yes, I have two beautiful daughters

BUT

YES Mom, I have depression ... deal with it. I have to.

I accept that I have down days. I know the ups outweigh the downs. I have great friends and enjoy fun times spent with them.

Why is it that some people just can't understand that depression is a illness not a disease that one can catch?

I guess I have learnt who I can depend on ... and as the Beatles said "I get by with a little help from my friends"

I am including a link to a song that always seems to make me feel better.
http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=bOiTaaoKca4&feature=related

Please do your bit and help create awareness.

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/index.aspx?

Movember

Bitten by the Blog Bug

Well here goes, I have been bitten by the blog bug.

2008 has been a new start to my life. Having found myself single for the first time in a long time and having to live alone and fend for myself I was quite overwhelmed. Focusing on the positives, I have met some wonderful new friends and am loving life. In hindsight, I have never been happier. I am enjoying my new found independence.

I am 43, have two wonderful daughters aged 18 and 12. They live with their dad in Sydney and I miss them terribly. I look forward to school holidays where a lot of parents probably don't as I get to spend precious time with my girls.

I take pride in the fact that despite the financial crunch I own my home (well together with the bank). My home is my haven. I have been lucky enough to have the assistance from friends to get my garden done and am looking forward to when it is finished so I can have all my friends over to Party!!!!

About me .... I love to have fun and a good laugh with my friends. I am addicted to my coffee and need my latte fix, hence ... luv my latte ;-) I enjoy music and always have something playing in the background.

As far as hobbies, I love to scrapbook and make cards. I love it so much that I have a room in my house dedicated to my craft. I often joke that I don't have a credit card, it's a craft account hehehe

I have recently taken an interest in photography and my camera seems to be adjoined to my hip lately hehehehe ... I never seem to leave home without it.

Hmmm to be continued ....